october 25

i cant believe, that it's already been a month.

hay naku, parang kelan lng nung ang drama drama ko pa, i remember i cried the day before the 25th of september because i was so down, my emotions were totally out of my control, i was so so very emotional...

hehehe and what was the reason behind that emotional turmoil i felt?

it was quite complex actually, that time i was totally stressed out due to my work ( and all the things that relate to my work harharhar ), my studies, and as in i was not able to go home for about a month or more than a month na ata un, i totally missed my folks so un i was highly emotional and totally downcast...

i was at a very low point emotionally nun. i was on the verge na of crying talaga hapon pa lang, nasa work pa lang ako nun pero halos makaiyak na ako sa sobrang pagod, physically, mentally and emotionally. then, out of the blue, a friend texted me asking me how i was. i told him i was fine. pero mejo hindi xa naniwala, at mejo makulit xa kept on telling me that he felt something was not right, na mabigat daw pakiramdam nya bowt me, kaya ayun d conversation was so serious, he said some words that totally knocked out the dam i was trying to build to keep the tears at bay at ndi ako makaiyak, kaya ayun napaamin nya ako.

at mind you i cried. as in while we (my friend & officemate na si roy, & i) were walking home (KASI ALA NG SASAKYAN AT GABI NA!) i was crying. and my friend was not even aware that i was crying. he kept on talking bout stuff, and making jokes, sa sobrang dilim ata hindi na nya napansin na i was crying na. as in i was totally crying.

but talking to that person who texted me gave me relief. gumaan ang pakiramdam ko and im still wondering until now, how he knew that i was not okay that time. we are MILES away. i mean, we are so far apart (geographically speaking)... but it seemed of all the people close to my heart, he was the only one who knew and felt (kind of...) na i was not okay. i dont know if it was just coincidence or something. but i thank God each and everyday for that friend who has truly been a gift to me...

im super emotional na naman ngayon, pero di ako naiiyak, kasi im just so happy and i feel so blessed for having this wonderful wonderful person as my very special friend.

i thank God coz He knew that i needed someone like him in my life and gave me him at the right time, when i needed him the most.

at ngaun nga, one month na ang nakalipas. ang bilis ng panahon. but kahit pa ganun kabilis ung time ok lng, im grateful for all the time that we are able to share with each other although we are far from each other physically...

thank you for your love, thank you for your prayers, thank you for being there when i needed you.

thank you for being you.


musikero, salamat... =)

***hehehe im starting to become very mushy and sentimental, pagbigyan na lang, minsan ko na lang nga na-papractice ang pagiging hopeless romantic ko eh... ciao***